I , Me and Shakthi - Life's little lessons

The average guy looks for a meaning in his life after a considerable journey through it . But what do I want ? I want to beat the averages and find the real me !! Will I succeed ? Fingers Crossed !!

Thursday, July 31, 2008

jeene ke liye socha hi nahin, dard sambhalane honge

jeene ke liye socha hi na tha, dard sambhalane honge

muskuraoon to, muskurane ke karz utaarne honge

muskuraoon kabhi to lagata hai

jaise hontonn pe karz rakhaa hai

What a song !!

Describes my predicament to the dot . When I was growing up , I thought I would be up against odds , but not this many and of this magnitude .It is now standing at a point where I am scared to be happy , coz the price for happiness is too high . Simple things , take a walk , play with my kid , walk with my wife , laugh out aloud , these are proving to be too costly and rare now-a-days . Is it me ? Is this what life is ? Well this is not what I thought it would be . Hope that it will et better soon

(FINGERS CROSSED )

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Thursday, July 03, 2008

Back after a long while ...

Hello Friends , I am back after a long time .Frankly , there are three things that kept me away from blogging daily - I , Me and Shakthi . I really would not want to blame anything /person other than me for this long absence . Let us just say that I was caught up in the grind and right next to the stone =) There were issues that needed solutions and there were issues without solutions . For most part I was lost balancing work and life . I almost got lost in the commotion to the point that no one could hear me screaming out for peace (including my own self) . But now things are standing at a stage where if I dont find it , I will pretty soon self destruct into a million pieces and no one will even remember that I was here . Yes the scene is that bad . Let me express that thought in detail below

There are two things that are bugging me , I am at a stage at work where if I miss a Sunday , pple ask me why and if I get to work on a saturdady at 11:00 am , I am late !! There you go , you think I am making it up , but really my dear reader , that is true as will my 400 other colleagues vouch . I guess the cost of greatness is immeasurable if you try to sit down and measure it . I guess that is why we never know much about the personal lives of Gary Sobers , Sachin Tendulkar , Rahul Dravid et al , do they have one ? are they happy ? Well answers might differ and be outside the scope of this blog , but one thing I have learnt is There is work till you die and hence you dont die for work . I know that I sound like a pessimist , I assure you that I am not . Just battle bruised beyond repair and not ready for the next one that is just around the corner inevitable lurking to hit me when I am not looking .

Coming to the more familiar turf of my personal life , I have succeeded in pissing off every single family member that I care about and putting them under pressure to make things work . I am sorry about that , it is beyond my control now . I am going MAD . Running a family is easy only when you have sane elders around you . If you have pple whose minds are going like a yo-yo then you are finished buried and forgotten . I respectfully ask my spiteful elders to spare me the painful daily life I am having now and help me to live like a man . Please guys , let me live . I dont want to go bonkers yet . I have only my wife and son for support now . Without them , I will definitely be writing this from a mental asylum .

Why do elders forget their life when it comes to the way they treat us ; why are things not clear to them when they hurt us bad for silly things ? Is this why you brought me up ? Well thanks !! You did a swell job , just that I am crying in pain daily . Wake up before I change and I dont wanna change now

Oh and before I forget , Hello Biju , how was the buttermilk break ? good ?

Man ! My kingdom for a few moments of peace in life !!!

Spl thanks to Cucumber , Monty , Bond , Potter , Mickey , Daft Punk , Neha and Nishita , they are the people who are helping me to not go mad now

Thanks guys !!


Dear Reader , I promise my next post will be positive , stay with me on this one

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